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| sunshine | August 31, 2009, 4:40 am GMT |
| I AM NOT FUCKING HAPPY ANYMORE. YOU GET THE FUCK OVER IT.
it's just another fork in the road. but it feels more like a knife. if i were more eloquent, if i were more pristine; maybe i could still be going places. but going places is only getting harder, and harder. i am tired. physically and mentally. and fuck this. fuck all of this. fuck you, and fuck your mothers, and fuck this blog. fuck nebraska. fuck seeing your breath in the fucking wind. your house, your cat, your fancy fucking digital cable. fuck being vague. fuck accepting faults. fuck me. but mostly fuck you. i won't always be like this. because it is not that bad. i have a case of the vainglories. or maybe the swine. fucking wake me up. fuck. | |
| stickam | August 28, 2009, 11:35 pm GMT |
| homeguy: hey
sassycasserole: hi homeguy: wanna have fun ? sassycasserole: not for real homeguy: virtual :) sassycasserole: not for virtual homeguy: :) homeguy: ure funny :) sassycasserole: i know so, besides idiots on the internet i have been dull. i say that so i do not have to think about what HASN'T been dull. so stressed. | |
| April 2, 2009, 5:11 pm GMT | |
| http://bbs.thesims2.ea.com/community/bbs/messages.php?threadID=07e7c95c105a6172864e047166d3d6d4&directoryID=2&startRow=1&openItemID=item.2,item.43,item.104,item.41,item.127,item.23 | |
| lost, find her | March 30, 2009, 8:36 pm GMT |
| these birds were lined up outside of a restaurant downtown. it made me sad, but i couldn't pass up the chance for a photo.
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| my hands can touch anything but themselves.... oh... wait... | March 3, 2009, 9:07 pm GMT |
| still slightly unsatisfied with life. | |
| for the sake of feelings | February 26, 2009, 8:20 pm GMT |
| i sort of forgot about you, runboard. seeing the those words from the past always seems so strange.
even good friends will stab you in the back sooner or later. i just never really thought it would happen. so yeah, i am sort of upset with emil-eye. but perhaps its for the best she just moves in jesse and leaves me, where? at my mothers. with matt? if she seriously thinks i could live with adam again, she's lost it. that wasn't where i wanted to be. i wanted to live with her. it all seemed so perfect in my own mind, but i guess not hers. matt's lease will be up in august and then we'll find a place. but that's so far off into the future, i just can't see that far ahead. surely something will take us apart, too. he'd hate to think i had thoughts like that. i found a boy who loves me. isn't that grand. 6 months now. a record... bethany is gone. and arizona is out of reach. even after i spoke to her mother... if i could have just been there. maybe it wasn't meant to be prevented. maybe she truly is happy now. maybe i can still go back. maybe in the summer heat. will my car even last that long? i miss you, i miss the innocence of being 13 years old. and for the sake of still being a goon; 125 lbs, baby. 15 more to drop. | |
| September 27, 2008, 10:46 pm GMT | |
| the real adventure about living with shea &adam is trying to find a way out of that batshit crazy household.
i'm happy. considering things have not been panning out as i would have hoped, but i'm still happy. | |
| there aren't enought shady places to hang out | July 18, 2008, 3:19 pm GMT |
| my new car is tearing up my wallet. gas is getting pricier and i'm working a shit job. i've already bought all new tires, got the brakes fixed (which i have to do AGAIN because that place was shotty as fuck), and now i need to get a couple leaks looked at. what i'm trying to say here is, I AM SO BROKE.
shea has offered me a room at her and boyfriends place. which i may take... i think we can make it work. it would be an adventure to say the least. | |
| calmly crashing | June 26, 2008, 4:56 am GMT |
| i was seeing someone. it didn't quite work out as well as i'd hoped. i managed to get something out of it. a new sense of self, whether i am comfortable with it or not... i can't quite say.
haven't spoken to him since i cut it off. i'd hate to lose the friendship. other than that, life has been peaceful. i don't know exactly what i want, but i know things are going to work out. one day, some place. legless love. i could use another cola. i'm very bored with everyone. and i'm very frustrated with my peice of shit car. and very broke because i like to eat out at nice places with people that bore me. i miss him and that means i've failed. i am full of fail. when am i going to get over this shit? 
that's a real smile. | |
| adventures with emil-eyes. | June 14, 2008, 8:13 pm GMT |
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| nothing nice to say | May 5, 2008, 4:12 am GMT |
| http://www.mitchclem.com/nothingnice/
punk comics! | |
| girls are vile creatures | April 30, 2008, 10:42 pm GMT |
| so i've been having these internal issues with a girl named ashley. she's been dating joseph since around january, i guess. anyways, she isn't all that nice to me. she told her mother that i had an std which is not true at all, and her mother goes and tells the man that i am seeing about the supposed std. she hangs around with people and tells them that i'm dirty. the girl barely even knows me. what gives her the right?
surely i'm none too happy about this, but what am i supposed to do about it? i'm not the one being so nasty. she dating MY joe. you think that would be enough instead of her spreading around rumors. she has to make it WORSE for me. i'm more upset than i am angry. | |
| new friends? | April 26, 2008, 11:42 pm GMT |
| i have no friends on msn messenger. will you guys be my friend, please? for a good time just add lettuceout@live.com... seriously! i'm entertaining and shit!
(everything sounds dirtier when preceded by "for a good time") | |
| strung out, hung over | April 20, 2008, 8:11 pm GMT |
| next month i'll be in nebraska with brian for a few weeks. i'm so freaking excited.
anyways i'm updating so i can show off a few pictures of earthfest and the 280 boogie. the cops showed up at earthfest. that was not so cool; i had to pour my drink out. ): 280 was sweet, though. i met a lot of people and saw a lot of familiar faces. shea went nuts, as expected. ted and i lost her by the end of night. the last i saw of her she was with that creep erik. 33 and hitting on 17 year old girls. no. I HAD FUN THOUGH. WOOT. the music was bangin'. here we go; hermatavore - earthfest 2008 
tree! - 280 boogie 2008 
iron on sewer - 280 boogie 
i met adams father, also. he is a bad motherfucker. adam is shea's boyfriend. how does he stand her? not a clue in the slightest. anyways, kevin was really cool. here's a picture of sheabes and i; she really is a crazy badass. :D 
i wish i'd taken more pictures of all the bands and stuff. oh well, there is always next year. me and ted have just barely skimmed on the topic of our realationship. i'm no longer worried about it. i like his crazy ass, and he's fond of mine. that's all i need. | |
| trying to make the most of it all | April 2, 2008, 12:23 am GMT |
| i play the sims 2. dork. this site is for my future reference.
http://sims2.simcredibledesigns.com/dl/htmlsobj/kitchen6.html i only have happy things to blog about which is boring. i'll log in some drama some other time. see you guys soon. also; MYSPACE.COM/HITLASPANTIES add this because they're trolling the forums on ts2.com and i find them HILARIOUS. | |
| every single one of us fed the ground | March 24, 2008, 4:59 am GMT |
| don't have much time update anymore. work and work and work and sleepwalk.
i continue to dwell on the past. it's getting to me. all i can think of is how much i HATE it, really. but to hate is to love, i can't deny that. and that worries me because surely i'd have fallen out of love and into a kind of nothingness, but it's only progressed into this unnecessary resentment and anger. sometimes i wish things would have worked out differently. brian moved to nebraska. nebraska. the hell? i haven't had a relationship since j. not really. i've been used a lot. hell, i've used others. sex is cheap, you know. it's just a lay. a lonely lay. lay lie low lovers livers loving. e-eye moved to montgomery, only an hour away. better than fucking NEBRASKA, brian. though i still rarely see her. she spent the week with me for my birthday last week which was lovely. we'll be moving in together within the next 6 months. so woo. i'm not even going to go into the situation with this silly girl named shea. we've been friends on and off for quite a few years, but she's kind of unstable. okay, the girl is REALLY unstable. just know, terra, when you come back to this little online thought processor, that she's a crazy bitch. and your best bet, terra, is to refrain from chilling with this crazy bitch for the REST OF YOUR LIFE. don't get pulled into the drama she creates. alright? alright. | |
| apologies | January 18, 2008, 5:32 pm GMT |
| i never want to hear someone say "sorry" to me again. especially when you are clearly not too remorseful. | |
| let it all drop | January 12, 2008, 4:49 am GMT |
| drunk. so i'm trying to get his job at pita pit, right? i don't think chel lady wants to hire me though. tough luck for me though, right.
i'm still into b. though, i'm seeing rodney now. sort of. maybe. i guess. haven't seen him/heard from him in a few days. at first i thought it might be something serious. now, however, i may have just been used as a replacement to his fallen grace. it was nice for the 4 days it lasted, i must say. and you never know, i may just be over thinking everything like a usually do and he'll show up on my door step tomorrow morning. doubt it (pesimistic). AZ in may. sweet. the road trip i always (dreaded) dreamed of. i'll finally meet johnny. i'll see bethanyrose again after 6 years. see b. meet some new friends and all. possibly we'll make it to CA, too, to see ken! i can't wait! (: right right right? i thought maybe i was coming out of the hole i had so graciously fallen into, but it seems, i'm afraid, i may just be digging this hole a few feet deeper. i must sound depressed. i must sound in despair. i am really just fond of sad words. | |
| the future you have tomorrow won't be the same future you had yesterday | December 21, 2007, 3:39 pm GMT |
| once again, i am no longer on speaking terms with joe. however, that's because he's dating this young girl i used to be friends with ever so long ago. and he was sleeping around with me not even a day before they put a "label" on that relationship. so, fuck that.
e-eye moved to montgomery. that's rather depressing. me and mccartney reconciled our differences so i am not entirely without friends. she's got something crazy in her head, but then i've always known that. i can deal with it better now that i'm older and not just get pissed everytime she has a freak-out episode. we all have problems. now i should vent about e and how he's 15 years older than i am. he's been a fucking creep that last couple weeks and i'm sick of him. everytime we have a drink he gets so touchy-feely. when we're in the car he won't pay attention to the road because he's too busy looking at me and trying to kiss me and rub his hands on me and it's fucking pathetic, not to mention annoying as hell. now yesterday he did a favor for mccartney, and he did the same fucking thing to her. all, "i love you baby"'s and "i have some lingerie i want to try on for me"'s. so i'm done with e. he needs to go find a lady his own age and stopping hitting on girls who can't even buy their own booze yet. god. early tomorrow morning my family and i are driving up to michigan. last time we did this it ended up being a 20 hour drive. obviously, i am so excited to do this again. it'll give me plenty of time to recooperate after the fiasco this week was. merry christmas everyone! | |
| some velvet morning | November 10, 2007, 5:44 pm GMT |
| i wake up cold and naked in some foreign bedroom to hear the roar of argument in the next room. the sun hasn't even rose yet. when i recognize where i am and pull the sheets closer; it's just another morning that happens every morning in the morning before the light.
i must stop getting so trashed at his place, it seems. | |
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